Tuesday, October 28, 2008

a prelude for 'chasing the wind'

So I have been feeling like The Father has been moving on my heart to get back into ministry, I have been receiving teaching for a while now, playing the background and I feel like its time to start giving a little. It seems like every time I start freely giving back what I have gotten, it some how moves me to growth, its like it is a missing element in my life that is needed for the full development of character.

Im not sure how scriptural this is, but it just seems right to me, not saying its anti scriptural or anything.
I mean,
I have been a youth pastor a couple of times, as well as worn many other titles, but honestly Im not after a title, Im not looking for recognition, I just want people to know God, and if He can use me to teach people about him or maybe even help somebody, in someway, and in the process help me get closer to Him than I say sure, sign me up.
This is a pretty big step for me, I got out of ministry because of fakeness, me being fake in order to please the fake people around me, and as a result I have grown a lot, maybe I can help people be real through the realness I have spent years cultivating.
Some people dont like a lot of what I say, I have been called everything from hypocrite, and carnel, to just plain wrong.
O well at least I am honest with God and myself!

And not to mention I am really getting tired of chasing wind.

-FOOD FOR YOUR SOUL FROM MINE

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I'm proud of you!