So, it has become apparent to me that some people have become irritated or at least uncomfortable with my openness, I mean people have texted me, emailed me, and told me to cheer up, to get over it, or to just live by faith.
I think I might understand why.
We all could agree It would be uncomfortable to look upon your friend butt naked, it would be pretty awkward.
I however strive to live a life of spiritual nakedness, who I am behind close doors is who I am everywhere, or at least thats what I strive for.
You might not like looking at my nude soul, it might feel awkward to you.
But I believe that honesty and openness is a rare and dying thing in this dying world, and if we ever desire to see real change, not the change that is one way in public but another behind close doors and under the sheets.
We must be willing to look on the inside and see our brokenness in all its filthy glory!
And then turn to God and confess our need and dependency on Him, and here comes the hard part....
Repent.
Repent, turn from our ways that are offensive to God on a deep level.
Take full ownership of our faults and apologize to our creator for screwing the whole thing up.
Thats what I am doing.
I think many people are affraid of doing this, so we wear our masks, we pretend we are ok.
Like we have it all together.
And we want others to do the same.
Just shut up and deal with it.
No
I wont do that anymore!
This is me, good, bad, ugly, beautiful, broken....
So if I offended you or if you have been worried about me, then I am sorry, I will be fine.
I am just messed up like you.
And I am choosing to look at it honestly, and deal with it honestly.
From the inside out.
-FOOD FOR YOUR SOUL FROM MINE